Tuesday 22 May 2012

they're precious

"Your parents may not be perfect, but they are the most perfect gift God has ever given you"
My Dear AYAH and MAMA :)

They're my dear parents, were given a chance by Allah to bring me to this world. to raised me up as who I am today. they are responsible enough regarding everything I need. their love and care are irreplaceable, with anything. they sacrifice everything for my sister and I. they will do anything just for us, just for us. yes I know, they might not had the chance like other lucky human in this world including me, to feel the most comfortable atmosphere to grow up and even until now, they still have to work hard to feed their daughters. and I salute them both for all they did for us, their daughters.

both of them, grown up in a situation that they have to survive under poverty, earn as much rupiahs as they could because they have other siblings, many of them. my ayah is the 3rd son from 6 siblings while my mama is the 3rd from 5 siblings. you cant imagine how their life was during their teenage years. my mama, in a very small village in pariaman ever worked as the coconut labour. bring a huge basket at her head and walked from the village to the main road to sell the coconut. its huge, and i ever tried to walked through the road, which still like the early days now, mud is everyway. really dangerous and with that thing on top of my head, i cant even stand properly, more over walk with it. its just a little story on how my mama survive just for the sake of getting some food for her family, well she lost her father (my grandpa) when she was little. my father, almost had the same experience, but he never told me. actually both of them never told me their early age stories. because they dont want to remember all the suffers and dont ever want me to be like them. *i heard the stories from my aunt and grandma*

since I was small, I wasnt really pampered. but kind of pampered. I usually gets what I want, and they tried so hard to fulfilled what I need. they dont want to let me down. even until today, they still do the same. they ever said sorry because they have to cut my monthly money because they have other needs. should they ever say sorry? they already give everything to me and just because a small thing they said sorry. I feel so failed as a child. I really want to help them, by reducing their burden. really hope I can do it very soon. really soon. 

when I said I always get what I want, its not that those things you imagine, readers. when I want to buy books, he gave me the book. but when I want a gadget, a handphone, nope they wont give me. I have to work hard to get the things you ever thought that it was too easy for you to get it. I have to put an effort. show a good result, achieve something. then, they will consider. as if the achievement worth the things I want. if you easily get that iPad, android, blackberry, macbook, im not like you. yes, this laptop was given by them because I need. the nokia phone also by them because I need to communicate with them too. but the smartphone, the modem, camera and other stuff that I own, it wasnt from them. because they refused to buy me. I had enough they said. if I want more, find it by myself. then here I go, work hard and get all those by myself. but I want to give them something too. one day, I will give them a very special gift. InsyaAllah... :)

my parents, for you may be not perfect in many ways, but they are the most perfect give that I ever got. I love them with all my heart and I will be their best daughter and will let them live happily in this earth and jannah. InsyaAllah, I will....

Friday 18 May 2012

this is not a random post

cewe : sayang, ikut aku ke toko elektronik yah?
cowo : ngapain? mau beli tv baru?
cewe : beli antena buat kamu biar bisa deteksi perasaan aku
cowo : *shit*

cowo : sayang, kita ke toko ATK yuk?
cewe : ngapain? bukannya kita masih kuliah -.-a
cowo : mau beli pulpen sama notebook biar kalo kamu setiap kali ada pengennya kamu tulis ke aku
cewe : *damn*

hello blogworld! what do you think of the opening of this post? isnt it ironic? first of all, i am not the expert of love matters. but based on what happened to me, few friends and books i read, then I come to this conclusion. well, its not really a conclusion, more into stereotyping individuals. boys are less sensitive to its surroundings and girls are complicated to be understood. in my opinion, only those couple who can go through this dilemmatic problem may continue their journey of relationship. but, for those who less courage to change and understand each other, might stop at the middle of the journey. second of all, this post is only an opinion of mine and if you get irritated by it, read it at your own risk.

lets start with girls problem. have you ever heard that only girls an understand other girls feelings? i think that's true. boys do understand them, but in a different way. the way girls understand each other is not stopping the tear drops from coming out. they let their friends cry. because the tears, represent how much the girl being so dissapointed about what happen and also how much she being hurt. she is in her deep heart broken, and by letting her tears, means she wanna let go all of her burden. while boys, thinks its not ok for girls to cry, and stop her. because boys usually get confused why girls crying. they dont know what to do. and for this one, i am not blaming boys. because i think they dont have the same psychology as girls and that might be a reason why they're less sensitive to girls. 

second situation, still for girls. when they are in need of something and their boys dont understand, or they understand but the pretending they know nothing or they understand but have few problems thus they have to pretend they dont know and hide their problem. is that so hard to understand what girls want? give her your attention, call her pretty, say I Love You whenever you had the chance, give her surprises and be with her whenever she need you. it might be simple by words, but its kinda hard to be taken into action right, boys? reasons for this? ask yourself, boys. but one thing for sure, the girls are not demanding for everything ive stated before, like everyday. but when its about time she demands for it, atleast, the boys please understand them. its not they're asking everyday, every moment. and for girls, understand you boys too. its not that they dont love you anymore and they should have certain priority that needs to be considered of. but please, never less priority your girls. 

now lets get the boys problems. boys, sometime have this 'man time' with their boyfriends. like playing futsal, just hanging out with the boys or whatever they called it. and sometime, they have their own busy stuff that they have to pay full their time to that matter. then, these unlucky girls have to wait alone and do stupid things and then get angry because the boy is not there with them. accused many things. including negative things. without asking, without thinking of the effects, without thinking if their boys have to do any obligation or what so ever they wanna do. and then, they end up arguing on small things. the only reason for the argumentation was the boy do not tells the girls what they are doing. doubts exist and they argue the whole day. right, isnt it show something? the girls is lack of sensitivity. selfishness is the main issue (for the girls) but the boys too have to be responsible. dont do things that you want without telling your girls. they also have right to know what you're doing. dont you know that they are afraid if you get another girl? girls are damn sensitive to their own feeling but sorry, they are selfish too.

second issue on boys. they are lack of feeling detectors. and its a fact. they are less sensitive in terms of knowing what their girls want. take an example of giving a present. sometimes, they failed to give something exactly the girl wants. and as the result of that, they get into an arguments. actually, this thing could be avoided. why dont at the very beginning the girls tell the boys what they want and with a huge effort the boys will try to fulfill it. but if the girls dont have the courage to do so, and just let the boys detected that by themself, than you should be thankful of whatever you get from the boys. dont complaint. but there's a different issue when the girl already tells the boy but the boy is stupid enough to put the effort on it, based on few reasons, then is it wrong for the girl to blame the boy? 

im not writing this to create a win solution to girls and blame the boys for everything. but, what im trying to do is to create better understanding for both parties. this is love, this is a relationship, where both individuals have to get better knowledge about each other and understandings are important. girls, be better in attitude, boys too. 

have a good day! 

-icha, a random writer-

Tuesday 15 May 2012

When These Words Being Said....

"Icha itu, ga pinter2 banget kok. kelebihannya Bahasa Inggris doank"

its not the first time I heard people saying this to me. too often. till one level I am feeling less enough to actually take any point to the words spoken.I dont care to what they says. they keep on telling the same things everyday, every hour till Im tired enough to even concern to each of the words coming from their mouth. well, you might wonder who are "THEY" right? dont be surprise to my story, they are my own lecturers. from the very first time I get into Polsri's Chemical Engineering, these words are already there. and its getting worst after 3 years. well, i do put my efforts on trying to get better result. but that's how my ability goes, an average chemical engineering student, have a very below average ability. if this a debate, then you will put me into a below average debate level with speaker score of 70 and Im failed in delivering my good arguments. 

maybe its true that I enrolled myself in a wrong major in college. well, its truistic in my opinion. hha but Im not regretting this at all, at any level. I did many good things during my college years. I achieved many things, even the most impossible said by those lecturers and everyone who looked down on me. I won a debate tournaments. I became the best speaker. I achieved Mahasiswa Berprestasi Nasional Award. I attended international conference. I was invited to adjudicate in a national debate tournaments. I am the scholarship receiver. I was recruited in an international company. those impossible things that they said I couldnt do. 

In my very own opinion, attending the college doesnt mean you have to be a nerd, only focusing on your studies and made you become the geek. its okay if you can achieve the 4 flat pointer, but for the average like me, finding other things that suit my ability, in order to cover up my average academic ability, I then become out standing. and I should be thankful to my English ability and so do them. if not because of my English ability, I wont bring Polsri's name to national level, because every time I went nationals, I will always mentioned myself from Polsri. yup, this girl who only good in english, not that smart in chemical engineering, but always taken for granted by you, heartless people!

Alhamdulillah :')

hello blogworld!

yesterday was the day of history *halah* :p I finally made it. the first step to my graduation, I successfully went through my Internship Seminar in front of 3 examiners, Ir. Erlinawati, MT. , Ir. jaksen M. Amin, M.Si and Ir. Mustain, MT. before the seminar I was really nervous, too many things in my mind untill few days before the D-day I cant have my quality sleep as usual. huaaaaaah :|

too many things that cant be explained by words. seriouly! one of the resius thing that  ever thought of was, if the lecturers do not find any chemical engineering related stuff, they might say i have to repeat another year and do my intership in a chemical engineering related industry. *that's an extreme thought ever -___-* 

but then, Alhamdulillah, it went smoothly. the questions were unpredictable! even they are some  funny moment when one of the examiners asked me in English, which was Pak Jack. in my opinion the seminar was more like introducing what is Schlumberger and my future position over there. :))

and now, after I made the first step successfully, lets focus on the second step, which gonna be harder. my final project! InsyaAllah, I can do this one too.. for the sake of my parents who never had any chance to get any proper education, for my sister that needs a good role model for her future and my boyfriend who is my biggest supporter ever, I am gonna my final project and successfully go through the final exam later. aamiin :)

I want this on my graduation day! :P


Sunday 13 May 2012

First Step to My Graduation

Tomorrow, I will face my Internship Seminar in front of 3 lecturers who be my examiners. Bismillah... For my mama, ayah, adek, Arief, my family, my eds family and everyone who always support me, InsyaAllah I will do my best tomorrow.



I Wanna Grow Old With You~~

Another day
Without your smile
Another day just passes by
But now I know
How much it means
For you to stay
Right here with me

The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger
But it hurt so bad I can't take it any longer

I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you
Sharing everything you do
I wanna grow old with you

A thousand miles between us now
It causes me to wonder how
Our love tonight remains so strong
It makes our risk right all along

The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger
But it hurt so bad I can't take it any longer

I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you
Sharing everything you do
I wanna grow old with you

Things can come and go I know but
Baby I believe
Something's burning strong between us
Makes it clear to me

I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you
Sharing everything you do
I wanna grow old with you

-Westlife-

I wanna grow old with you, Arief :')

Tuesday 8 May 2012

It Will Rain.....

If you ever leave me baby,
Leave some morphine at my door
‘Cause it would take a whole lot of medication
To realize what we used to have,
We don’t have it anymore.

There’s no religion that could save me
No matter how long my knees are on the floor
So keep in mind all the sacrifices I’m makin’
Will keep you by my side
Will keep you from walkin’ out the door.

[Chorus]
Cause there’ll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There’ll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same, if you walk away
Everyday it will rain, rain, rain...


I’ll never be your mother’s favorite
Your daddy can’t even look me in the eye
Oooh if I was in their shoes, I’d be doing the same thing
Sayin there goes my little girl
Walkin’ with that troublesome guy

But they’re just afraid of something they can’t understand
Oooh well little darlin’ watch me change their minds
Yeah for you I’ll try I’ll try I’ll try I’ll try
I’ll pick up these broken pieces ’til I’m bleeding
If that’ll make you mine

[Chorus]
Cause there’ll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There’ll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same if you walk away
Everyday it will rain, rain, rain...

[Bridge]
Don’t just say, goodbye
Don’t just say, goodbye
I’ll pick up these broken pieces ’til I’m bleeding
If that’ll make it right

[Chorus]
Cause there’ll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There’ll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same if you walk away
Everyday it will rain, rain, rain...