Assalamualaikum, hello my
blogworld! :)
Hey,
I am already 23 years old and I am about to get married with the one who loves
me and he willing to grow with me through good and bad in order for us to be
better. Yup, I am getting married, InsyaAllah when everything is fixed, of
course all of my friends will be invited. This is a good thing; this is a huge
pray, so I keep on telling myself that I should prepare myself for this one
huge dream. :)
As
I grow older, supposedly I should grow more mature right? But I am not so sure
if I do grow maturely now. Pretty bad, but then at least I do realize that
there are quite so many things need to be fixed. But for sure, the first thing
that is needed in order for a better life with him in my future life, I should
do something. Positive changes, I will call it.
For
some people who know me since ages, they might realize that I have a very low
level of patience. Yup, I am not that kind of soft hearted individual who will
stay calm at most of the situation, especially when I am mad. I do not have a
good self control for my anger. Well, I believe that anger and patience are two
brothers who are related to each other and it suppose to be under control.
ALWAYS. And because of that, in status quo, I am in the changing process of
having better self control.
It
is not easy. Like seriously, before this, I just got to say whatever I want
whenever I got mad. Even at one point, I ever throwing things just to release
the anger (this is a true fact of me). Mr. W ever seen me having this super
madness at the beginning of us being together. Seriously I just got mad for a
very small thing, and everything becomes a disaster. It happened once, and it
is enough. Enough for creating an
unacceptable situation.
For
the first time (okay, I finally realize it), that is not a good thing at all.
Hahahahahaha. Yes, you may laugh at me. I do feel guilty of doing that. I
destroyed my own life for ages and I hurt so many feelings. I want to stop. I
want to have a change. I want to be better. I want to have a positive life. I
want to have more patience. I want a new me. That is what I keep on saying to
myself.
Alhamdulillah,
this issue has brought out something good in current situation. Alhamdulillah,
I am still given the chance for a life change. He supported me so much. And
finally he successfully sees a better Ms. M in his days after the disaster
incident.
I
just want to be better, at each and every second of my life. Not only for
myself, but for the one I love, for my surrounding. I want to prepare myself
for the next phase of my life. My life of being a wife to Mr. W. InsyaAllah, I
will put huge effort to it. :)
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| Emak-emak to be :p |
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