Friday, 9 November 2012

its all about TIME

"time will heal"

I dont know whether its true or not, but maybe that's the only answer for all of my prayers.

Im sitting at the corner of the room. Crying all night long. Yes, nothing is fine for me now.

I hope time will stop my tears.

I hope time will cure my heart.

I hope time will remove the empty spaces in it.

I hope time will make me a better person.

I hope time will make everything gonna be alright.

I hope to be happy. With or without you.....

-Malisa Sudirman-

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Thursday, 8 November 2012

Kosong

Kosong. Empty. Nol. Zero. Hopeless.

That's represent my heart now.

Im suck. I know.

Im bad. I know.


Im stupid. I know.


Im demanding. I know.


Im not thankful. I know.


I love you? I dont know.

You dont love me? Yes I know.


Why you are not loving me anymore?

Why you left lot of empty spaces in my heart when you left?


Why you let it having a hole inside there?


Why dont you just kill me?

Dont you know that everything inside me are dying.


Im a dead soul.


Yes I am



-Beast-


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Sunday, 28 October 2012

Lets Be Thankful :)

Assalamualaikum and hello my blogworld! :)

Im kinda busy right now, yes as a new employee at PT Dowell Anadrill Schlumberger Balikpapan, seems I have so much to catch up and increase my speed of learning. and because of that, I might only have once a week to blog all my activities. but that's okay, atleast I still have a day off to rest from everything I do daily at the lab and office. hhe :D

I just wanna share this one thing, this big thing that everyone including me should realize. its about being thankful for what we have. everything that God has grant us. for this one time, I wanna be thankful for a very specific reason, which is my new job. 

Alhamdulillah, Im now can be proud enough to be hired in the biggest oil and gas services company in the world, Schlumberger. the company that never crossed my minds, and the field that I never thought that Im gonna join. this company, if you ever read my previous blog that I only knew a day before I get into the interview, almost a year ago but now Im wearing the blue coverall everyday for work. :D

its something you receive without any expectation. everything happen so sudden and right now Im ready to face the reality. ready to take a new responsibility. I dont know what else God has written for me, but the most important thing now is just go with the flow. go through all His ways for me. :)

Im thankful to work here, these good people I met. great surrounding where you not only see Indonesians, but also those Western people, and even from other Asian people. a good place to live, here in Balikpapan. everyday with free transportation provided using Toyota Innova back and to office from staff housing complex. working in a the most complete lab in whole over ASA region for Schlumberger company, the busiest work activities in Indonesia, and the chance to learn from the experts. 

Schlumberger its not just a place to work, but its the place to learn. the knowledge is worldwide, the source is damn huge. Im thankful to be here, thank you Allah. :)

Sunday, 21 October 2012

Seluruh Nafas Ini....

Lihatlah luka ini yang sakitnya abadi
Yang terbalut hangatnya bekas pelukmu
Aku tak akan lupa, tak akan pernah bisa
Tentang apa yang harus memisahkan kita

Saat ku tertatih tanpa kau di sini
Kau tetap ku nanti demi keyakinan ini
Jika memang dirimulah tulang rusukku
Kau akan kembali pada tubuh ini
Ku akan tua dan mati dalam pelukmu
Untukmu seluruh nafas ini

Kita telah lewati rasa yang telah mati
Bukan hal baru bila kau tinggalkan aku
Tanpa kita mencari jalan untuk kembali
Takdir cinta yang menuntunmu kembali padaku

Di saatku tertatih (saat ku tertatih)
Tanpa kau di sini (tanpa kau di sini)
Kau tetap ku nanti demi keyakinan ini

Jika memang kau terlahir hanya untukku
Bawalah hatiku dan lekas kembali
Ku nikmati rindu yang datang membunuhku
Untukmu seluruh nafas ini

Dan ini yang terakhir aku menyakitimu
Ini yang terakhir aku meninggalkanmu
Takkan ku sia-siakan hidupmu lagi

Ini yang terakhir dan ini yang terakhir
Takkan ku sia-siakan hidupmu lagi

Jika memang dirimulah tulang rusukku (terlahir untukku)
Kau akan kembali pada tubuh ini (bawa hatiku kembali)
Ku akan tua dan mati dalam pelukmu
Untukmu seluruh nafas ini
Jika memang kau terlahir hanya untukku

Bawalah hatiku dan lekas kembali
Ku nikmati rindu yang datang membunuhku
Untukmu seluruh nafas ini, untukmu seluruh nafas ini
Untukmu seluruh nafas ini

-Last Child ft. Giselle-

Friday, 19 October 2012

A New Life Episode :)

Assalamualaikum and hello my dearest blogworld! :D

sorry if this kinda late and might be short, but I'll try my best. anyways, Ive been here, Balikpapan, East Kalimantan for my work assigned by Schlumberger since 3 day ago and because of some problem, I cant connect to the internet. its not that Im staying in the jungle, but my modem has no signal at all while in this staff house, KBC no 31, the wifi using password! no one here, thus I dont know whom to ask. -_____- finally, after asking to my friend who is staying in another house, I can use this free wifi service. hohoho :D

I am finally sign the working contract with Schlumberger. my first contract as a Lab Technician Trainee that contains blablabla benefits which I hope will benefit me too. its for the first year (12 months) + 2 months of bonus and THR, with the same amount of salary, yup before I get into SLB School in Kuala Lumpur. currently Im stauying the temporary staff housing complex in KBC. its only free for a month. hha after that I have to move out and rent a room with my other girl friends from SLB because, if I continue to stay here, I wont get the housing allowance, which is that huge amount of money. hahaha :P and also free transportation provided from SLB via Journey Management Centre, popularly known among us as JMC that manage all the transportation in SLB. whether its for in town, to office and especially to location. everything needs to be reported to JMC. 

but what's lacking is my meal. hahahaha I eat much and Balikpapan will burn out my purse for food! -______- its damn expensive over here, mama! I havent get my salary yet, due to the payroll process and etc etc, I will get my salary on 25th November 2012. bewh, still long time to survive with a very limited amount of pocket money *self pukpuk*  but yeah, just experience this one, and enjoy. anyway, Im working inside the lab, with full air conditioner, so no sweat at all, people! haha :P

My temporarry PKI for all access to SLB Door :D
maybe that's for now, very limited time to blog. I have to be ready for office. see you lovely readers! :))