a New Addiction

Hello blogworld! 

its me, your annoying Icha is back on track! arent you happy seeing me like this? hewhew :D yeah, I know its been so long me drowning deep down in the ocean of sorrow and its about time for me to wake up and be strong! yes! :D

as for now, Im happily working with my new addiction. yep, beside blogging routinely with a better manner, Im also doing this recording stuff. Im singing online! hahahaha its not that extremely good voice tough, but yeah, Im doing it for fun. and to break my boundaries. to believe in myself. things I never thought I will do before, im doing it now. hhe :))

this not a new addiction actually. well, Im a super amateur bathroom singer with a super weirdly amazing voice. hahahahaha :P and love doing that. singing while taking bath, means something to me. at least, I can imagine how the life of those big stars while pouring water to my body. hihihi :P

and I should thank this android application named Soundcloud, available for android and iOS, where you can easily download that at the playstore, for free of course! yeaah, we love free and good application! :))

you know what, even professional artist also using this. as a form of promotion, why not right?  and obviously Im using it without any intention of promotion. daaaaaa -,- Im using it just for the sake of having fun and trying something new. for this time being, I already recorded 2 songs, and I dont think its can be considered as good. even to say ok, might be hard. haha but yeah, I just love doing it. no matter what people say, I will do things I like. just like this blog. because I love it. :D

if you're wondering about my froggy voice, here check this out http://soundcloud.com/ichasudirman and if you're afraid my voice will ruin your day, just dont click it. hahahahaha :D

good day people! :))

a Road to Become Stylo - Part I

Hello bglogworld! 

how do you feel reading the title? hha sorry my dear readers, doesnt mean to disturb you with that title but its just pop my mind. somehow, its catchy tough. hihihi :D

I have this one obsession on photography. but at first, I dislike to be captured as the object. because Im shy. REALLY. I mean it. I know who I am. yeah, not that camera friendly after all. hahahaha :P

but yeah, I found its interesting when we can capture our own figure, touch it up with some help of photography application on my android and laptop, its fun actually! :D

furthermore, this is my blog. and I can post anything I want, as long as it does not create harm to other people. and I believe that since day one I blogged, I did not create harm to any of you. *eaaa :P 

and here we go, my first post for fashion stuff. yes, finally! hohoho :D 

this one was taken quite long, yeah sorry dear kinda late. but still, better late than never right? 

for this one Im wearing a pattern long dress, red cardigan, two tone pink scarf, leather sling back and bling-bling flatshoes. this is the 'raw matterial' pic

and this is how it looks on me 

those things, which mine only the long dress and the scarf. the bag, shoes and cardi was given by my mom's friend. its not new actually, but still in good condition. yes, I love those! :D

Life is to Learn

Hello blogworld! 

today is a brand new day and I have to be strong in facing it. Im turning myself into a positive Icha, creating a better mindset about how life suppose to be and I will get through it. InsyaAllah. :D

yes I know, I might be the most labil human creation in this whole wide planet earth.and plus, regarding self attitude, I might be the most inconsistent human being too. yeah, blame my dark side for that. hhe :P

actually, I have nothing much to say. because I dont have to create that good image in front of you. its always better for us to be ourselves and its always better if we improve ourselves everyday. and that's what Im trying to do now. learning to be better, each moment I could. 

God gave us life within a purpose. in my opinion, He wanted us to learn. to learn in accepting, understanding, tolerance, and in a whole idea of being a better person. learning means improving. each second, each minute, each hour and each day, we're doing the process. and its back to us on how we facing the process.

why I say so? because everyone going through their learning process in  various way. for some individuals, they have to face certain failures in examination before getting into their favourite university. for other individuals, they have to face a huge bankruptcy in their business before getting a stable one. and maybe for some, they have to experience of losing someone they love before having a better love in the future. and these things, have its own meaning. 

if we ever lose something, we will learn to appreciate what we had. if we ever failed on something, we will learn on how not to giving up and keep on trying. even if we ever felt the most happiest moment in the whole world, we learn how to be thankful. God is creative, He gave everything we need in His own beautiful way. and I thanked Him for everything I had. even for the thing that I will never have again in the future. 

I think now you know why I posted this. you might have various definition for this post, and its up to you. good or bad I'll accept it, with an open heart. because life, is to learn. good day! 

no comment :P

cheers,

Icha~

Someday, I'll be Alright...

Hey you, its me again. have I ever told you that Im not doing fine since that day? yup, since the last two months Im not okay. everyday living with my regrets, and keep on crying on my mistakes. its hard for me to accept reality. on how much I wanted you back, as how much I keep on praying, everything wouldnt be the same as how it ever was, like that fast...

I dont know why, whatever you said on the phone yesterday opened my heart. on accepting my reality. our reality. finally I listened to you, and I will always listening to your words. you said that youre not my everything, world doesnt only evolve around you and me, and what if one day you'll die and leave me forever? at first, I cant accept that word. I mean, how could you say so? there's someone here who would do anything just for you and you'll leave? I forgot about God. He who wrote our life story, my life story. 

you gave me a song, entitled 'Mata Hati Telinga' and you asked me to read and understand the lyrics.you asked me to pray, more, and effectively do it. you asked me to do activities. you even asked me to talk to anyone. I did. for you. because I know you're suffering looking at me like this. as how much I ever said that Im suffering, you are more than I ever imagine. I listened to your words, because I love you. no, Im not asking you to love me back, but Im telling you that deep in my heart, there's one feeling that I cant avoid if its about you. its love.

I think finally you said the right word, with your soft voice. you know me well, how stubborn I am. no matter what people said, how hard they try, I will never ever listen to them. except they are my parents, I will obey them even how hard it was. thank you for brought my life back, even you're no more inside it. I will keep on living my life, according to what He had written for me. a new world is waiting for me, I'll meet new people, and I hope I will always smile to it. Im putting the pieces of broken heart back together, I know its not that fast to be ok, but I'll try. try as hard as I could. for you.

one day I'll learn why this ever happened to us. why He said we have to be this way. why Im no longer with you. till that one day for getting the reason, I'll be strong. be a better Icha in facing life. I'll learn to let go. I do believe in God and I know He will give the best to us. maybe one day you'll be with someone who will make you happy, will accept you as who you are, appreciate everything you do and most important, better than who I am. I want to see you having a better life, happy surrounded by love. because your happiness means my happiness, even if its not me to make you happy. I know that I can't make you love me, want me, or understand me. All I can do is hope that someday you will. and I hope someday, I'll be alright....

"Nothing could change what you mean to me"

 -Heaven, Bryan Adams-

love,

Icha~

Way Back Into Love~~

(Drew Barrymore)

I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on! (Hugh Grant)
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need 'em again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!

[Chorus]
(Both)
All I wanna do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
Ooo hooow

[Verse 2]
(Drew Barrymore)
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's gotta be something for my soul somewhere!
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/h/hugh_grant/way_back_into_love.html ]
(Hugh Grant)
I've been looking for someone to she'd some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.

[Chorus]
(Both)
All I wanna do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end!

[Middle-eight]
(Drew Barrymore)
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

[Chorus]
(Both)
All I wanna do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end!

Kaulah Segalanya~~

Mungkin hanya Tuhan
Yang tahu segalanya
Apa yang ku inginkan
Di saat-saat ini...
Oh...

Kau takkan percaya
Kau selalu di hati
Haruskah ku menangis
Untuk mengatakan yang sesungguhnya...

*Kaulah segalanya untukku
Kaulah curahan hati ini
Tak mungkinku melupakan mu
Tiada lagi yang ku harap
Hanya kau seorang

Kau takkan percaya
Kau selalu di hati
Haruskah ku menangis
Untuk mengatakan yang sesungguhnya...

*Kaulah segalanya untuk ku
Kaulah curahan hati ini
Tak mungkin ku melupakan mu
Tiada lagi yang ku harap
Hanya kau seorang

Wooo....

*Kaulah segalanya untuk ku
Kaulah curahan hati ini
Tak mungkin ku melupakan mu
Tiada lagi yang ku harap
Hanya kau seorang 

-Ruth Sahanaya-

a Graduation Speech

Hello blogworld! 

Alhamdulillah, finally I have graduated from my beloved campus, State Polytechnic of Sriwijaya on 12th September 2012, and a the new journey has just started from that day. :D thus, I would like to have my graduation speech here, yup because I didnt get the chance for that at my campus because the speech was given by the ex-student President, Edwin Frymaruah, my friend from accounting major.

First of all, I would like to say my greatest gratitude to my God, the one I belief, because of His blessings, I become who I am today. for everything He had written for me, I couldnt even express how thankful I am. He has create a very good story for me, everything I have experience for all my life, especially during these last 3 years. things that I never thought of before, has become one out of thousands memorable experiences.to study in a college, might be a dream of everyone. but with my condition, and my family, I never thought that Im gonna wear 'toga' one day. but then, God has given me that chance. things my parents never experience, seeing them smiling during my graduation day, everything's paid off. Thanks my dear God. :")

Secondly, my greatest thanks to both of my parents. the one who sacrificed everything just to see me having a better life compare to them. the one who worked starts from the early morning till late night, the one who fulfilled all my demands, the one who will do everything, just for me. things they done, things they said, everything, are so meaningful to me. I dont know how to pay back all that, really. but I just pray my best to the, dunia akhirat and I will always try my best to let them have a better a life than before. as long as I been given the chance to see them in this world, there's nothing else to be done except seeing them live happily and no more working that hard. I'll try, my dearest parents, thanks for everything :")

 Next, I would like to say my uncountable thank you to "Kakek2 Bersuara Kodok", you know who you are. hhe Thank you for ever came into my life and being a part of my soul, thank you for the love and care, thank you for the endless support, thank you for the sms, thank you for the phone call, thank you for the voice, thank you for the time, thank you for the moments, thanks for everything that ever happened between us. things that are unforgettable for all my life. you will always be a part of me, forever. :")

lastly, I would like to say thank you for everyone, from the lecturers, classmates, EDS Polsri members, friends, family and everyone Ive ever known, to make me finished this journey as a college student. its not just the end, but its a new beginning, for a new phase. to the real world, good luck for me and everyone! :D

me! :D

Sebelum kuncir dipindahin. hhe :P

smile of mummy & daddy <3 br="br">

Im a graduate! :))